After last night, i got to know many things that i didn't know and also things that i do not want to find out so as not to hurt myself. However, now that i have known all these, i think i ought to do something about it ya? I really like HIM a lot, really do but i'm not obsessed with HIM lahx..In fact, all i wan is to see HIM happy no matter who HE is with..After all I believe that HE would be happy if HE chose HER..Anyway, the chances of me and HIM are very very slim, Almost IMPOSSIBLE!! SHE can make HIM feel happier as SHE is always so cheerful..Furthermore, I'm a BITCH wat, HE's juz too good for me lahx.. Rough,Loud,Maybe considered flirt by some,Have AP..really don't deserve someone so nice like HIM..Should be contented to have known HIM and to be frenz with HIM..However, I can't forget HIM, it's really hard cos in actual fact i don't really wanna give up but i know i must!!Everytime i wanna give up, i think of HIM, I see that meaningful christmas card, and looking at my inbox I'm back at square 1.. HE might hate me for telling HIM so much about how other girls cared for HIM (i juz did it again!) but in one way or another, I'm forcing some reality into myself..I wan to tell HIM that i cared as much but i typed HER name instead..I only want my frenz to be happy...Not trying to be noble or anything but juz selecting the best choice of all..I've been crying these two days because of everything..SILLY?? Yes, I am.. Frankly, there's nothing one would not do for someone they like..Unknowingly, it have been 1 yr and 2 months...Undergone many things but the worst juz happened when i thought everything was so perfect and nice..I am shattered, really am.. Have been crying silently in my room, holding on to that card and my pooh bear..Forgive me will U??I'm really sorry for liking U...I might not be the one for U but I care for U....
`If U stop liking a person, all U have yo do is to cover UR ears, but if U try to close UR eyes, LOVE turns into a drop of TEAR...