haiz..dunno what happen..
dunno where to start saying from..
but i feel very sad..
haiz..yesterday night sit alone crying in the living room..
was supposed to slp at abt 1 plus but end up i 3 den slp..
haiz..den today listen to songs and i started crying again..
really dunno what to say but i wish i could cry all my troubles out..
haiz..really very troubled these few days though i dun really show..
hmmm..today we reached funan late..
haha..dn went there and started helping out..
guo liang wore specs today..very cute..
haha..played a few games den rest..
den get ready for the auction..
den dunno what happen..
they ask me go up the stage..
i thought they joking den jianwen say faster..
den i blur blur jiu go up le..
haha..very funny..
den jiu a bit paiseh up there seeing all the people..
especially........shall not name all out..
anyway, i feel a bit weird up there..
but ok lahx..no stage fright cos i ain't performing or anything...
frankly, it's been a while since i stand on the stage..
haha..last thing i did was chinese dance last yr..
haha..den i think we attract a lot of attention there..
haha..everyone like keep staring at us..
and jenson got fans following him den he act blur..
ask us walk around with him..haha..
very funny lorx..dn when we walk with jenson..
many many ppl stare at us..jace oso realise..
maggie and jace keep saying hip hop and frenz were looking at me
pls lorx..they are not lahx..can't be de..
see me for wat..haha..think we think too much lahx..
they aren't looking at us..
anyway, today we managed to make new friends..
hope history would not repeat..
after XXX, i very scare le lehx..
haiz..so many troubles but who to say to?
He met her at a party.
She was so outstanding,many guys chasing after her,
while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party,
he invited her to have coffee with him,
she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised.
They sat in a nice coffee shop,
he was too nervous to say anything,
she felt uncomfortable,
she thought to herself,
"Please, let me go home.."
Suddenly he asked the waiter,
"Would you please give me some salt?
I'd like to put it in my coffee."
Everybody stared at him, so strange!
His face turned red but still,
he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.
She asked him curiously,
"Why you have this hobby?"
He replied, "When I was a little boy,
I lived near the sea,
I liked playing in the sea,
I could feel the taste of the sea ,
just like the taste of the salty coffee.
Now every time I have the salty coffee,
I always think of my childhood,
think of my hometown,
I miss my hometown so much,
I miss my parents who are still living there."
While saying that tears filled his eyes.
She was deeply touched.
That's his true feeling,
from the bottom of his heart.
A man who can tell out his homesickness,
he must be a man who loves home,
cares about home, has responsibility of home..
Then she also started to speak,
spoke about her faraway hometown,
her childhood, her family.
That was a really nice talk,
also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date.
She found that actually he was a man
who meets all her demands;
he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful.
He was such a good person but she almost missed him!
Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful love story,
the princess married to the prince,
then they were living the happy life...
And, every time she made coffee for him,
she put some salt in the coffee,
as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away,
left her a letter which said,
"My dearest, please forgive me,
forgive my whole life's lie.
This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee.
Remember the first time we dated?
I was so nervous at that time,
actually I wanted some sugar,
but I said salt.
It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.
I never thought that could be the start of our communication!
I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life,
but I was too afraid to do that,
as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..
Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth,
I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..
But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life!
Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you.
Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life.
If I can live for the second time,
still want to know you and have you for my whole life,
even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."
Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her,
"What's the taste of salty coffee?"
She replied, "It's sweet.""
Love is not to forget but to forgive,
not to see but understand,
not to hear but to listen,
not to let go but HOLD ON !!!! "
hmmm..how true is it..but holding on to something impossible..
is useless..juz like me..i held on to it for 2 years den i gave up..
but now i'm holding on to another impossible love,
though i might say i give up already, but i now i still haven't..
it aint that easy..really..i took two years to let go of the past one..
and because of that i let go many opportunities..haiz..
so can anyone advice me??
hmmm..today went to funan it mall.. can't deny that it is quite boring.. but i had fun looking at shuai ge.. jenson was very funny lorx..the way he talk and stuffs.. me and maggie kept laughing when he was promoting the items.. haha..got shuai ge working there de..Mr Ah Blue.. that is what jenson called him de.. very very funny lorx.. and obviously he knows that we are looking at him.. cos he oso kept looking at us.. OMG!!so paiseh..haha... haha..den after that we ate pastamania den went to paya lebar... went to find yanling sly fc de.. haha..she went there very early.. den so qiao..huifen they all beside them.. haha..we quite high at first but the people kept pushing very irritating lorx..reminded me of SFF can? that people use my head as a stand for her dumb cam..IDIOT!! haha..den we went to see matthew.. the guy who wrote jian shang qing ting for wallace.. the song really very very nice oh..meaningful lyrics..haha.. matthew not bad lorx..quite shuai..but he's maggie de ok?!?!?! haha..dun think of anything or else she might bite..haha.. den we took photos with ah de.. i shouted so many times but he didn't hear.. however, everyone elses heard and think that i m crazy lehx.. haha..so paiseh can..haha..he is really really very friendly oh.. but he going back taiwan to guo nian.. haha..but will come back soon..haha.. hmmm..den we went home..took bus.. guan ding replied me again..so high sia.. second time he reply seh.. he very very seldom reply de can... haha..but i would prefer to talk to xiaoren lahx.. but he super long neva come online le.. haha.. miss them..anyway, guan ding, remember what u say oh.. haha...
hmmm..still haven take a photo of my hair..
haha..maybe when go mimi house..
will use their digital cam to take..
haha..i want to go swimming but my nails..
hmmm..scare the colour everything will drop
because of the chlorine in the pool lahx..
haha..maybe should go gym instead then..
haha..will see how lorx..
haha..
hmmm..going out le..
update when i reach home
provided i am not tired..
hmmm..today is a very weird day..
morning go work on my own cos mabel went off early
so i very poor thing but nvm..
i still manage to get to work lahx..
haha..but on the train there is this weird uncle
this uncle shifted and sat beside me
very very close beside..
i feel like asking him what's his problem lorx..
maybe i think too much but i think he's a lecher..
haha..today at office..i finished what i had to do le..
den helped wendy ko ko, opheilia and michelle..
haha..quite fun..cos the things i do today is different from usual..
heehee..photocopy, filing might sound boring but i had fun
haha..shall enjoy my last day of work..heehee..
after work went to find mabel den did the manicure..
hmmm..the lady super slow can..
haha..but i chose a shocking pink for the colour lehx
haha..think i am crazy le..very AA horx?
but who cares?? as long as i am happy can liaoz..
mabel so sad..too bad i got no bad who will complain and make me change e colour
haha..we went to people's park centre to eat dinner
den walk for a while cos mabel going to meet reuben..
we went to see some sweets to buy for new yr..
den we went to the stall outside bossini..
got this guy immediately gave us things to eat when we look at the things
i didn't really bother abt him den mabel
dunno why today so nice reject him
den he say he offer us we dun wan..
den in the end he open a jelly and force mabel to take it
den mabel talk on the phone to her mum
and that guy keep asking me to give him my number
haha..he sounded like a malaysian..
but he keep saying that he is singaporean
den he insist dat i give me so that we can be friends and go out..
pls..he abt 25 plus? i guess so..
den he say singapore girls very dao de..
Mabel lim, i tell u, the jelly u ate wasn't free...
i suffered harrassment while u enjoyed it
and u didn;t save me..
so bad!!!!!! haiz..it is like years ever since someone ask for my number..
haha..suddenly remember abt the first time someone ask for my number
i was with mabel once again..very very funny..
mabel, u still remember at hougang mall?
haha..his friend was more shuai right?
and we were considering giving it to the shuai ge instead of the person who wanted it
haha..we were very lame at that time..haha..
thinking back makes me feel so dumb..haha
hmmm..today went shopping at OG during lunch break
saw some nice nice clothes which can wear for new yr
maybe next day can go there see..
haha..supposed to go highlight my hair
but in the end mabel not feeling well
den i decide to go another day..
steph going with me on wed..
haha..so excited..
my temp job is coming to an end soon
that's very sad cos the pay is really attracting..
haha..andy, pls extend me..haha..
today at OG saw a customer she very ji dong
she so angry and ji dong that she started crying
she is a middle aged lady lehx..
haha..she keep saying ppl insult her
a bit weird lahx..poor customer service officer
muz be having a hard time..
haha..i should start looking for a job le..
gtg slp..muz have enough rest..ciao..
hmmm..juz came home
feeling very sad..
i think my mouth really quite cursed lehx..
i was juz thinking maybe i would see XXX
when i was alone walking to go find maggie and huiqi
den indeed!!! I saw XXX..
Many should be thinking i should be happy ya?
NAh..i felt like crying on the spot..
he was with a ger..
no big deal rite?
cos he ain't anyone to me rite?
He really ain't..
But his colleague saw me..
his colleague was walking a distance away from him..
not sure if his colleague will tell him..
no point after all cos he wun bother abt me..
i am a sand in his eyes..irritating and useless..
something that no one would want..
Got no right to compete for anything
when i dun even dare to tell him anything
i am very useless..
i'm glad i got HIM to listen to me..
HE is still the best but i think we can only be friends..
Who is willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on?
It really is bad crying alone at home..
The tears juz flow when i think of XXX
be it in the room, on my bed,
in front of my laptop, while bathing,
eating...haiz..XXX, u sucks...
XXX : i like U but i HAte U,
I miss U but i Hate U,
I want to continue being friends with U but i hate U,
I want to forget U but i hate U..
Dun worry, i Hate myself for wanting to know U in e 1st place..
I m a bitch..i hate myself..
i think i am fake but who cares..
if u are true to me i will be true to u too..
but dun ever be fake to me..
dun lie to me cos i hate liars..
lies can hurt someone very deeply
and some wounds cannot be mended..
i wan to say out all my feelings but i dunno how to..
haiz..i dunno where to start from..
but in the first place..
who is willing to listen..
who will be there to listen to me, U?
who will be there to wipe away my tears, U?
who will be there to comfort me, U?
who will be there to give me a hug, U?
who will be there to make me stand on my feet again, U?
who will be there to lend me a shoulder to lean on, U?
who will be there to juz see me cry everything out, U?
where are U, i really need U now..
but U are nowhere in sight..
i'm all alone in my world of complicated thoughts..
hmmm..everyday going to work
and going home from work..
i will walk inside riverside point..
inside got two bridal shops..
the gowns very very pretty sia..haha..
den yesterday when i finish work
wan to go take mrt..i saw a bride..
she very pretty..
guess everyone will look nice in a wedding gown de..
den they having a wedding reception at the bridge..
so romantic..omg..the waiters there quite handsome lehx..
but i was in a rush so neva really see..haha..
all should be from merchant court hotel de..
heehee..haiz..i envy all those couples i see everyday..
i think we really shld treasure every moment of our life..
dun regret after u let go..cos it is no point..
time waits for no man..dun be like me..
a wrong decision can be painful..it hurts..
and it's not only me who is hurt..
haiz..i am juz a naive ger who wants to be loved..
though i enjoy singlehood..
but a part of me still long to be loved by that special someone..
not everyone have the ability to be that special someone..
i thought i have found mine but i guess..
i aint his special one..thusw things wun work out...
hopefully things will get better for me..
i wan to move on in life..
i dun wan to think le..
but after seeing U i feel sad..really..
i dunno why..i no longer have the courage to look at U
not anymore..even if i see U i turn away..
i refuse to smile but deep down i'm hurting..
U know? U don't.. U nv bother i guess...
Anyway, hope U find UR special someone..
all the best to U..I'll try to avoid seeing U..
until all is gone..haiz..
went to far east with huiqi
went shopping for new yr clothes..
i bought two shirts..haha..
den i went to turn at rei there..
and i tell u i so forgetful..
i left it there after that..
i didn't bring it home..kaoz..i so blur sia..haha..
waited for alvin they all..see them botak..
haha..they dun look that bad lahx..haha..
heard them singing purple light..
oh i miss my npcc days..
i miss the fun we had..those were the light years..
where i was happy and not as many troubles as i have now..
cos at the time i had him..but now the him is happily with another her..
all the best to him..though i regretting letting him go but
i still wan to wish him all the best..if i had made a different decision then..
would things be a lot more different now?
hmmm..i tell u the bitch at ??? smiled at me yesterday..
i think she is crazy lorx..
i thought she hate us..must be because of XXX lahx..haha..
haha..i think it's weird but i ignore her..
who cares..i am now a working population..
happily working in a comfortable office..
i need not stand the whole like u..haha..
u bitch..get lost and stop being fake..
go chase after XXX lahx..perm ur hair to attract XXX ah?
ok..enough..i think i myself is a bitch too..
but i dun wan to be related to u..get lost..
hmmm..back from work..
very tired..was supposed to go swimming
but scare i will be very tired and i having minor flu
so never go already..haha..
went to buy food for daddy they all
den take mrt home..
hmmm..should i spend 30 dollars to buy nan ding ge er??
got kunda..though now i not as crazy over him
but i feel like watching lehx..
should i buy or should i save the money and buy clothes??
haiz..i want go shopping..
i wan buy clothes and oso new yr clothes lahx..
haha..tired tired tired..
but on the whole not bad lahx..
heehee..hmmm..
i muz learn to be independent..
i dun wan to rely on U anymore..
i shall motivate myself to carry on with life..
i hate U but i hate myself more..
be it the limited memories that i have..
i dun wan them anymore..
u can have it all..
though little the memories might be
but it is hindering me from moving on
i really do wan to move on..
i am alone fighting and standing on my own feet
nothing can bring me down..
If a gal cries in front of u,
it means dat she couldnt take it anymore.
If u take her hand,
she would stay with u 4 de rest of ur life;
If u let her go,
she couldnt go back 2 being herself anymore.
A gal wont cry easily,
except in front of the person who she love the most,
she becomes weak.
A gal wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.
Hey Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with u for the rest of ur life.
Hey Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision,
u ruin her life.
When she cry rite infront of u,
When she cry bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel de pain n hurt she's feelin?
Think.
Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity,
infront of u, and bcoz of u?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
She cry,Because cryin silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony haf become too big a burden 2 be kept inside.
Guys,Think about it,
If a gal cry her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u haf done,
Only u will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late too say "I'm Sorry".
"A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose."
-Rob Cella
still very upset with my life..
i hope i can stop thinking of those sad memories..
but i CAN'T..wanna drown myself in all the work i have
Ppl, intro me as many jobs as possible ok?
pack my schedule so i wun have time left for me to think
i hate my life..
sitting in front of my laptop
tears fall again..it seems like a routine now
i really dunno why..
why do i feel so sad..
i think i really like XXX but
i can feel and tell that he is avoiding me..
why? i oso dunno..i wun deny tt i dun have e guts
i dun hav e guts to tell XXX tt i like him
but there are things that need be spoken out
now i think friends oso cannot be le ba..
from now on, i wun go far east le unless got something to do
i shall go home after work from monday onwards..
dun call me go out le..i dun wan to go out anymore..
i shall be back to e way i used to be..
the lonely me..if got nothing dun call me..
i dun like to talk le..i like being alone..
i wish to get another ear piercing..
to remind myself of this period of time
whereby my heartache will be much worse for me to bear..
who wans to lend me a shoulder to cry on?
i hate crying alone in the living room everyday..
What a fool i have been? I feel so dumb..
i already know what will happen but i juz have to do it..
dumb? i am juz so spastic or even worse..Yida boy i miss u..
wonder if u still remember me hope to go visit u real soon..
times with u are the best though it breaks my heart at times..
who wants to go visit the kids with me..i miss then lots..
on the mrt home, i finally decided to delete all the sms
and of cos after that i deleted his number..
i dun wan to see him anymore before my heart really shatters..
why? can i juz stop thinking so much..Will HIS shoulder still be there for me
for now that i have fallen for XXX..i do miss HIM frankly..
but for now i know i like XXX but he is someone whom i feel i shld nt like
dun ask me why..i feel so weak..who says all in love is fair?
it isn't..it is all bull shit..
today is my first day at work at estee lauder companies
though it was quite tough at the beginning but
now i'm getting used to it..it aint tt tough now..
i'm getting used to it..hope they'll extend using me
i dun wan to go back to the place where my tears will drop
i know it's my prob..but going there, seeing XXX will
only make tears drop and my heart will cry too..
i dunno why this is so but now thinking of him
can already make me cry..
anyone have any ideas to stop those tears from flowing?
haiz..or who is willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on?
and who will be there to listen to me and dun feel tt i m silly?
will there be such a person? if i say i like him,
would u think that i m crazy?? cos i will think i am lehx? haiz..
it's been quite long since i fall for someone le..
but why? things always dun turn out the way i hope..
life juz sucks? why do things have to turn out in such a way?
life is so meaningless..
today went to far east again..
i reached before sam then i went to walk around first
today, elf shop jay, chia lin and hao hao was there
but nv go in to talk only said hi and bye
den i did said hi to michael when he came out from toilet
helped ann to serve customers juz now at the shop
really very funny and luckily we managed to help
haha..will help her tmr again and of cos we oso muz find our leads
gerry told us that the POA girl with the ponytail keep staring at us
hmmm..she really did lehx..i myself oso saw..
i very bu shuang lehx..i feel like asking her what she staring at lorx
kaoz..wat a bitch!!! Stop staring before i dig out ur eyes ah
and u refuse to change money for us..
we helping ann change de lorx..cos the shop got no small change lorx..
u bitch..kaiz..so irritating..feel like slapping her sia..
heehee..i very naughty and bitchy now but this is juz me
and i tell u i feel so dumb..cos i get the Zen's number again
me and sam asked him before lehx..
den his frenz told we wan to know him lehx..crazy lorx..
haha..so paiseh after i remember when i got zen's number before lehx..
haha...really so paiseh but zen is quite shuai ok?
today saw justin the yakun guy..haha..
i think he never work in ya kun already sia..
muz be dreaming to be a star already..haha
but i really think he not good looking at all lehx..
haha..i got find many other ppl that are more shuai..
haha..feel so weird that we never go elf today..
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hmmm..i hope things will be fine again..
today will still be going to far east
but two days later, thursday..no more far east for me..
for at least two weeks..cos i'll be working at clarke quay
at estee lauder company as a temp..
hope i'll enjoy my work there tho i'll be alone..
but nvm..can take that time to reflect
when i start work at estee i think i will not go to far east
i dun wan to go there cos in such a short period of time
too many things happened..haiz..
looking forward to my new job at estee..
reb and sam u all still muz update me abt everything ok?
cos u all will still be there..and when free i meet u all ba
but not at far east..we go some other place..
maybe behind avalon there ba...
temp will not scout soon lohx..cos everyday in the office
who to ask? haha..but i ca go for private cosmetic sales..
yeah..my favourite!!haha..no lahx..i very lazy oso liaoz..
haiz..saving money for taiwan trip..i really wan to go sia..
anyway, have to see le lahx..i now gt so many things to think about..
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i think me and HIM are more comfortable in talking le..
glad to have a fren like him for me to talk to when i m down..
hope HE can find a nice ger ba..haha..
My male frenz almost one by one going into army le..
so fast sia..haiz..hope to have a class outing soon
miss so many ppl..
hopefully those excesws water flowing out from my eyes
wun blur my vision and cause my spelling and typing to worsen
i dunno why i am feeling this way..
for the whole day i have been very sad..
i think it is very obvious that i am sad
i seldom talk and this is hardly me..
i used to be a noisy and irritating bitch
but what have happened to me
i no longer wan to talk
i have been crying otherwise controlling when i hear one song
the xiao chou yu by xiaozhu..
it so fully describe my feelings..
haiz..i very long neva feel this way..
but i dun understand why it is him lorx..
cos i dun really know him at all..
i wun expect much..i dun expect anything to happen
cos i know i am a failure in love..no point..
these few days as usual at far east
we have been there for e whole week can?
haha..made friends like desmond, rei, tony, chia lin,
jay(though i nv really talk to him), michael(dunno wat to say to him)
and of cos dino who turns out to be chewy's fren too..
haha..dino going to go NS tmr..haha..good luck to him sia..
hmmm..maggie they all went to get Michael's number on fri
haha..den jace keep saying he got ba gei..but i think he very cute lehx
i think he better looking than tony lorx..
haha.the more i see tony the more i cant stand him.. :P
haiz..anyway, these few days many many things happen
i do we all think too much..
i dunno why but we all think too much of everything
but i juz dunno what to say..
maybe it's juz normal..cos all the while i have been thinking too much
desmond hire new ppl already and he very seldom will come le
saturday, morning we went to distribute flyers..
damn tiring sia..haha..
while distributing, i received a call frm...rui xiang
he called me to ask abt his notes..haha..
i was surprised to receive a call from him lahx..
after he got a gf like nv hear from him le..
After tt, we went to far east and michael nv work sia..haha..
he say he got headache
but at night he was in town..jace ask me to ask him come far east
haha..den he came far east for a while nia and went off liaoz
i quite paiseh and dunno what to say sia..
when will be e day tt i will stop thinking too much lehx???
haiz..sad..i very long neva go out with mj ppl le lehx..
for those reading my blog, free muz contact me lehx..
miss ya all..
~When u love someone, all u have to do is close ur ears
Cos if u close ur eyes, love turns into a drop of tear...~
Yesterday i damn moody but i dunno why..
i really dunno why..i tried to search for a reason
but i really dunno..luckily, my discman no batt..
cos if got bad and i listen to those songs
i am very sure i will cry..cos in mrt i control very long le
and i tried to be happy but i cant
not even after i see michael, desmond, rei or even zhang dong liang
in fact after seeing some ppl i more sad..i tried not to show
but i think it was quite obvious..
haiz..i really dunno what i myself am thinking..
HELP HELP HELP!!!
Who will be the one to mend my broken heart?
Who will be the one who can help me gain my confidence once again..
haha..yest i think we had lotsa fun at ELF
haha..the both of them very lame especially tony..
i think he is trying very hard to impress
with all those rubbish that he learnt in Singapore..
i think he is crazy lorxx..and very bhb..
haha..i think he is a very fast learner but
the things he learn are all rubbish..
i think the funniest thing he said was "uncle, dun kick me"
haha..he very lame lorx..
and he very lousy in cooking up stories
though it's quite funny and entertaining..
haha..tony and Chia lin are both very se..
always stand at the door to see chiobu
haha..yest desmond quite scary..
seldom see him so stern..
haha..
i cant believe we can get to know ppl in far east
juz the way we did..haha..not bad ah..
too bad my spikey the shop cannot go in and play play de
and spikey didnt work yest..
woohoo..today super super high..
but i muz say..
SAM, I HATE U AH
u make me super super pai seh lehx
haha..but nvm..we are still best partners..
like tt maybe he will remember me
haha..for the sake of prettae i will forgive u
haha..i had lots of fun today
though its quite hard and embarassing
my AUSTRALIA very shuai rite?
ahhh~~why he going back to study..haiz
i dun even know ur name lehx...
so happy we see tracen today again
haha..i wan my POA guy number
today we keep walking past he gt smile at me lehx
OMG!! i think very obvious i wan his number for e thing
but i can't ask cos he working
we saw David yeo too...
omg..dino..sorry if we scare u
haha..i think we scare many ppl these few days
heehee..i really have lotsa fun though the money we earn
eh..nt very much lehx..
haha..made so many new friends in far east sia..
haha..next time go far east got so many friends le..
to all the fake people
since u all have already not treat me as a fren
since the day after they went back
den what for still ask me to join u all
why bother?
really..why bother?
scare tt i'll be pitiful?
scare tt i wun have frenz
i m very disappointed
disapointed in myself
why do i trust u ppl so much
when after all u all dun give a damn
why do i still treat u all as frenz
when u all dun regard me as one becos of a grp
i dun blame the grp but myself
if i nv insist any of u to go with me
maybe things will be different
but whatever it is
i know it all now
i understand everything
so pls take that fake front away
be yourself..y wear a mask?
dun u feel uncomfortable?
i despise ppl who say this but behind me doing so many things
i despise u, u know??
i no longer care what u think..
u might be unhappy that i m saying this here
but let me tell u
not happy dun come lahx
why u all come to my blog for
spy on me ah?>
see if i put my conversation with them here ah
i wun..and i will never...
dream on ok?
To all my true friends out there,
i hope that things will be fine for u all in 2005
and may everyone meet true friends
dun be like me ok?
for those fake ppl out there
stop pretending to be my friend
i dun need such friend
i rather be friendless than having u there acting to be one
stop acting ok?
u all cant act well
nt happy juz say lahx
and stop blaming me for everything
think twice
u might be at fault too
dun push all the blame to me
nt happy come out talk lahx
but i am happy that i do have a few true friends
looking forward to chase again
i had so much fun chasing xiaozhu
and so happy that he does remember us
haha..xiao shuang jie very pretty..
haha..i miss xiaoren..he's so busy
poor thing..looking forward to march
ppl, start saving ok..we'll be going there to meet many ppl
haha...
happy new yr !!
it's a new yr and i hope everything will be fine
gt many things that i wan to do this yr
hope i can fulfil them
miss xr a lot..really miss him...
