U think it's my attitude?? fine..i got nothing to say..from now on, all blame me ok? E more the blame the happier i feel..If u stop blaming me i'll be very sad..can? i was juz asking for suggestions otherwise later i decide everything ppl will say i neva ask for their opinions..so what u wan me to say..I really dunno..how i wish i could slp forever..yesterday actually i woke up in the evening but i juz dun wan to face the world so i forced myself to sleep..how nice would it be if i could slp forever..after all, no one would care or bother..
Sylvester, i've finally passed u the drawing..i knew you like it a lot so give u tt lorx..after all i can still draw somemore..really happy u remember it and take it and thanks for responding to me everytime i call u..Cos my members wan to take a photo of u..So sorry cos i wanted to shake hands with u den u got scolded by the security..Wonder if u got hurt?? Anyway, thanks a lot lahx..for everything that happened on saturday..haha..ur trademark really cannot take off ah..see u hot until like tt, i heart pain sia..haha..anyway, not sure if thurs i'll go anotx..
Haiz..so sad chris is out of sg idol le..they went to his church today but i cannot go cos my dad dun want me to go out le..Anyway, i do miss chris..Thanx for ur patience with us and our hugs..haha..I think i have became the hitlist of chris fans cos they tot i kissed him or was it the other way round..aiyo, dun have lahx..i was merely talking to him juz that we were quite close cos he couldn't hear what i say mahx.. den he scold me for crying..haha..
I'm born in a hospital..not a zoo or circus where i need to please and entertain ppl..I ain't coached in those places too..i really dunno how to please ppl..in the past, i make my own decisions and ppl get angry with me now i ask ppl for opinions, then i am said to be asking too much..so what do u wan me to do..i ain't perfect..no one is..even the president isn't.. Like wat mabel's dad say i wish i was only 3 yrs old..all these would never have become a problem..i miss my grandmother a lot..i miss the days when i have her by me..i miss the way she'll hear me out and all she would do for me..I oso miss Lin Ting, though we were only frenz..u did a lot to brighten up my day, u might not know..I was a much happier person after knowing u, though we were always bickering..I miss ur calls when u would start crapping and i miss the way u call me(u seldom call my name u always call me mei da mei xiao) how i wish i could let u know how much i miss u but if i whisper it to the wind..will u be able to hear me from up there?? It's all fate that things ended up this way..If only i could have stopped u..but now it's too late to say all these..but i really still miss u many many..If i were to leave where i am now, would i get to see my grandmother and would i get to see lin ting?
why things turn out like tt? my fault..i admit i'm stubborn and very bad-tempered..but this whole thing isn't my fault of cos i have to fight back..U all dun bother to listen to how i feel den wat u wan me to do..U angry with me at most u dun meet me lorx..delete my number ba..maybe you'll feel better..after all, i'll take my stand that i'm not the only one at fault..and i have been very understanding already..But who have been understanding towards me..No one..absolutely no one..Who is there for me when i need someone when i needed a shoulder to cry on..No one..I dun understand what i'm still here for..is ending my life better..the society will have a dreg lesser..Our group might be happier..I guess i'm more suitable to be on my own..this world is too big for me..my thinking might be too naive..dun be too good to everyone as they would take advantage of u..Till today, i haven found anyone tt i can trust completely..everyone is so busy with their own stuffs..who bothers abt me? I cried for hours yesterdaybut instead of feeling better i felt worse cos the outcome still depicts me as the one in the wrong? Was i really in the wrong? Anyway, who do u think u are to judge me..If u dun trust me and care abt me, u definitely are no one to judge me..U aren't even fit to talk to me..
My, my. Aren't we special? You're qualified for the part of Itsuki's lover, but the fact of the matter is, will you two ever reach that state? I wouldn't worry about it, Itsuki sees you as a very admirable person, and he likes your shyness as well as innocence. Wow! ;)
youre soft on the inside but have a protective shell so you dont melt for all things sentimental. while youre not going to forget what's important to you, youre also open to romance in whatever form it might take. youll hav an amazing vday, whether you spend it w/ a cute boy, or hav a girls' night out.
youre soft on the inside but have a protective shell so you dont melt for all things sentimental. while youre not going to forget what's important to you, youre also open to romance in whatever form it might take. youll hav an amazing vday, whether you spend it w/ a cute boy, or hav a girls' night out.
The light angel likes you and he hasnt even met you yet! Wow, thats pretty impressive! (I'm running low on pictures of vampires, dark angels and angels... if you ahve any could you please give 'em to me? Much apperciated!)
You are like the snow fairy, she is very beautiful, she has the power to make things beautiful, but She is sometimes quite selfish, and spends most of the time she should be using her magic staring at her self in the mirror. Other than the fact that she is vain and selfish. She is a nice person, when she IS actually using her magic, her powers are great, and she is very helpful. Well that's most of the tings about the snow fairy, can you relate to some of them? You probably can, because that is what this quiz is for!
F*** !!! I'm sick and tired of all these le..Why should i bother when no one else does..After what happened, i was already deeply hurt but frankly who bothered about how i feel.. I dun care if u think i was silly to have shed all those tears cos none of u out there knew how i felt..Who knows how terrible i was within..No one..absolutely no one..Since no one bothered, why shld i still continue? Yesterday, one by one left, i didn't say anything cos there are other ppl there..I oso taking my A levels but who cares about this silly me? No one!!! I'm oso supposed to be studying...I really dun feel like going le..I'll try to do my part..maybe after tt find someone to take over me ba..i had enough..really tired and hurt..This fragile heart can't take it anymore..I've been controlling it for days and now i really can't take it anymore..i dun want to lie to anyone anymore..I'm still very upset over what happened..All u ppl saw was a fake front..understand? i doubt so..no one understand me from within as i hardly dare to open my heart to anyone anymore..I can only keep everything within..
long long neva blog le..today woke up feeling a little lost..too many things happen le..
On thursday, went to find willy to celebrate birthday with him..he got same birthday with me..heehee..We bought him a shirt and then man ling gave him a present but that was a prank not the actual present..willy open until his hand very pain..so poor thing..wanted to save him but he said nvm..Cos tt time he laughed at yutaki so now his turn..Anyway, he was surprised that we went to look for him..haha..Huiqi, Doris and Yy gave me a sylvester..very happy lorx..and huiqi ask me to hug it to sleep..haha..And I did..heehee..
On Friday, It's finally my birthday..Today went to mediacorp to watch singapore idol again..but so sad jerry cannot go today, supposed to meet him de..But anyway, i went there very happy cos it's my birthday and oso hoping to see sylvester and christopher..But before that i saw something that made me a little angry lahx..but nvm..maybe he juz wanna share it, i dun mind but thought he would wear it today..Den during the show, christopher recognised us and he was shocked..haha..his expression was so so so cute but very happy that he recognised us..den sylvester oso saw us..oso quite shocked lahx den he showed us a i love u sign..haha..not devil sign oh..heehee..But he not wearing the bracelet..den we ask him where it is, den he say it's at backstage..Anyway, we were sitting together with Maia's supporters cos there close the upper gallery and chase us all down..haha..Den Maia's sister was sitting beside Xin Wei..haha..Olinda and Maia oso keep waving to us..After the show, we went to reception there to wait for sylvester and christopher..den waited very long but fans of christopher kept increasing and it was a long time before it was our turn but nvm..cos he already know us le mahx..haha..He remembered my name and he better remember until next week he oso wished me happy birthday..Took photo with him and oso managed to get his autograph..haha..will upload it soon..We got to know his mum too and oso his dad and of cos Su-Ann, chris' golfer fren..haha..she very pretty.. Den we continue to wait for sylvester and he came out finally at 11..Den actually wanted to wait till lesser ppl but too late le so we went to look for him and ask him for some autograph and managed to get a happy birthday note from him and oso managed to take a photo and of cos a hug..But, some things happen in the midst that made me very disappointed..But, nvm..
This is the first time i cried on my birthday because of a him..I'll neva forget it..
hmmm..today went to buy my prom gown le..heehee..expensive sia..haha..it's blue..haiz..i'm missing him again..wanted to write letter for him den sat there and start crying..really very sad..hope he'll be ok and i really hope all his fans wun hurt him again...Birthday is coming le other than my close frens who else will remember ah..=(
hmmm..today went to buy my prom gown le..heehee..expensive sia..haha..it's blue..haiz..i'm missing him again..wanted to write letter for him den sat there and start crying..really very sad..hope he'll be ok and i really hope all his fans wun hurt him again...Birthday is coming le other than my close frens who else will remember ah..=(
yesterday went to wang jian fu's kbox birthday party..He very handsome sia and oso can sing very well sia..haha..while waiting for the thing to start, jerry called yy lehx..haha..i answered the call..a bit weird though..haha..Anyway, jeff sang songs and even played games..they all very funny..me and yanling jie laugh until stomach very very pain sia..haha..anyway, quite fun lahx..even took photo with him and oso got his autograph and he oso wanted us to email our photo and name to him..quite nice lorx..after the kbox thing, me, huiqi and doris went to bugis the shop..i bought a necklace..got a heart and a 'k' actually is buy another one de but luckily i didn;t..haha..cos got 30% discount..hmmm..need to start studying le..cannot everyday play and play..
Thursday night was a long waited day sia..I waited for it to arrive for very very long le..finally can get to see sylvester le..haha..yy couldn't go cos she need to work den xinwei brought her fren along..we really had fun and we met Sylvester's sister, stacy there..She's so pretty and sweet..very cute..But i can't stand it when fans start pushing her when she was trying to get sylvester's signature..i had to protect her and was so worried for her..haha..She was so scare when she thought she got no space in the car to go home..she almost cry le..den she so cute..she went into the car and we were trying to communicate thru the window..haha..so cute..Sylvester was so scared of his fans tat he dare not come out to talk to us..haha..After that we went to find chrissypoo and took photos with him..We oso talked with him for a while..He's a very friendly guy..
haha..i very very happy lehx..Cos yest he came out den he shouted for him den he waved at us lorx..haha..Den we saw something familiar on his wrist den guessing if it was the bracelet den we asked him den he played with it and even took it out to wave den he almost wanted to throw it up to us..haha..I was so happy that he wore it..Screamed like crazy lorx..Den everyone was like what the hell are we doing lorx..only the 5 of us know what's going on..haha..So funny..When we scream for chrissypoo he went to call sylvester to look up den we say we calling for chrissypoo den sylvester was like they call u lahx..haha..so blur..Den after the show we went to find chrissypoo and say him..Den he was like cos u all keep shouting sylvester mahx..haha..Chrissypoo was happy that he's still in..and he thanked us for voting for him..haha..oops!!Talked too much abt chrissypoo le..Back to sylvester..The moment he stepped out he was mobbed by his fans..poor thing..they were pulling him all over..i wanted to wipe his sweat for him but scare later kena beaten up..they a bit scary ah..haha..In the end, when he wanted to come out to take photos with us, the fans pulled his arm and refused to let him go..Den we were angry we shouted "Dun pull him lahx"..He was like a puppet yesterday..they were pulling him here and there lorx..poor thing..Den his father came to save him..haha..When i took photo with sylvester, i told him i very happy to see him wear the bracelet, den he replied me cos it's a lucki charm mahx..haha..so cool..Thanx Sylvester..Hope u keep ur promise horx..When we ask him to smile while taking the photos den he say cannot lahx..muz cool mahx..haha..I took photos with olinda, maia, jerry, chrissypoo and of cos sylvester..haha..Actually jerry's quite a nice person lahx..I hugged him too after taking a photo..haha..At the end of everything before we left i hugged chrissypoo and oso maia..haha..They were all so nice and friendly..Reach home super tired le..I'll post the photos as soon as i get them ba..haha..need to go prepare to go kbox le..Wang Jian Fu's birthday partu at kbox today..haha..6 more days to go..Me birthday reaching le oh..heehee..=P
yeah..chien pei bought the bracelet le..heehee..that's means i can wear on Thursday lehx..haha..hope SLY oso got wear it ba..Today went to see prom dress and i saw one that i like but it's pink..actually very nice lahx..haha..i can't wear tube dress because look very weird..haha..still considering if i should buy that dress..heehee..While shopping for irwan's birthday present, i saw a converse jacket that i like a lot..haha..I think it's a new one, it cost $59.90..quite ex sia..me no money le..it's white with red streamlines den in the fron got two pocket at the bottom corner got a number 08..haha..very nice..but eh..i prefer no 3..but converse no sell three ah..haha..haiz..muz go save money den can buy that jacket..think it's gonna take quite a long time sia..haha..Though got 4 tickets each week till 19/11 to see Singapore Idol Live performances and results, i only can go for two weeks..haha..Cos it clashes with A level..Sianz...Haiz..got to go study le..will come back to post photos that we took on sat soon..hopefully lahx..
OMG!!!!!!!!!! i'm really going to go crazy soon.. I can't believe it..he got such a pair of mesmerizing eyes lorx..i almost faint lorx..went soft..was so stunned i didn't know what to say..i'm really really very happy..Thanx SLY..I managed to get sly to shake hands with yy too..haha..i really hope SLY would wear the bracelet lehx..heehee..Waiting for thursday to arrive..heehee..can someone watch Singapore Idol together with me? i scare i faint sia..haha..all i can say is i'm really crazy over him le..how? HELP..hope he'll contact Xin Wei after reading our letter..PLS contact Xin Wei..We took photos with Benjamin Eio, Andy Joshua they all and even hugged them lehx..heehee..but most importantle i wanna hug SLY..still waiting for the chance..heehee..Hope can meet sly soon again..heehee..he's very very friendly..and so happy that he held the bracelet and letter so tightly..heehee..
hmmm..Sly sang hound dog..haha..it brings back some memories of our training for Love meridian day sia..haha..Anyway, Sly sang well but eh..i dun like his hair lehx..No matter what, we'll be behind him..HE's great..heehee..Of cos i haven forgotten Daniel lahx..Seriously, i miss daniel but i think i still have to wait patiently before he comes to Singapore ba..Now everyday have to study study and study..so sianz..A levels coming le and i'm really worried but i ain't studying enough..HELP!!! Hope to do well ah i dun wanna waste my 2 yrs lorx..haix..Anyway, tmr we're going to the LIME party to see SLY..=P
I like this blogskin lehx..butterflies.haha..
