Hmmm..i have stopped work on Thursday~~ Then Friday went for Prescriptives Private Sale den went orchard to meet Maggie Went shopping for a while! Went to FOX to buy clothes.. bought a tube and a pants..heehee~~ Den after that went to Marina Bay to meet yy cos we going to celebrate Jace birthday! Steamboat was fun and we really ate a lot of PRAWNS sia~~ haha~~ Saturday went to kbox for the JJ event~ I woke up late so Jace and Maggie went first! So tired~~ Hear JJ sound check and he oso sang Forever Love i think i prefer Wang Lee Hom sing de ~~ Haha~~ Den the singing competition i dun understand why that guy never win sia~~ Haha~~Fated bahx..We waited for JJ and Jin Sha to finish their interview Den took a photo with them~~ JJ quite active cos we went ind en after that he started dancing and dance up to the stage~~ Den me and Jin Sha keep looking at each other den at JJ~~ Den after that JJ feel a bit pai seh sia~~haha~~ After that went to suntec for the Z-pop concert~ Stupid security say cannot bring my 'mai xiang' in~~ but in the end we still got it in! heehee~~ Me and Jace disturb the guy outside until they recognise us and say dun need to chop the hand le! Aiyo! so paiseh sia~~ haha~~ The concert was quite interesting lahx but kinda cold in there cos our there like not much people! All sitting down~~ Took the last train home sia~
Sunday --- Jace Birthday! Meet at 2 plus den after that go Cine cos got Fan Wei Qi event! Dunno why got slight headache and no appetite to eat sia~~ Everyone eat den i ate fruits and a little bit of carrot cake! heehee~~ Den went to sing utnil they called to say fan fan is here den we all start our 'show' hahaha~~ Jace earring got hooked onto fan fan's jacket took a photo den after that shake hands and she went off le! Den we continue our singing session and had lots of fun sia~~ But i was very cold sia den i hide in one corner and sleep sia! heehee~~ Den after that pass the hp to XXX and went down to buy dinner with XXX den i stay outside and talk with XXX talk until everyone wanna go that time lorx! heehee~~ These few days nothing much happened oso! Only that yesterday i went to SCAS to see my YIDA boy~~ Miss him so much sia! At least fri can see him again! We'll be going to pasir ris park seh! FUN! Today early in the morning went swimming with Mabel! wore my pink pokka dot bikini to swim..aiyo! so paiseh sia~~ haha ~~ realised i very long never go public pool le~~ Now public pool oso so high tech sia ! haha ~~Swam until 10 den bathe den now at QPS house~~ Mabel come here to do her NTU things den i use computer lorx! At home the laptop a bit siao siao le ! We two very hungry but MS QPS is still sleeping sia~~ Later going Kovan to eat Thai Express~ Wah! i really very hungry sia~~ Heehee~~ Update again another day when i got come online bahx~~ HeehEe ^ ^
Yesterday night i set alarm for my daddy to wake up to watch soccer but forget to tell him i used my hp! Den in the end, the hp rang and me and my mummy woke up but my daddy was already in the living room watching his soccer! Den after that i sms XXX, i think maybe i'm e sillest person on earth? Can i be anymore stupid than i am now? After that, i cried myself to sleep! I cried for about 45 mins~~~ Woke up at 7 with swollen eyes den decide to sleep for a while more till 745 really dun feel like going to work cos i really feel very sad and frustrated! No one knows how i really am feeling~~ Cos i myself aint sure either! I know there are alot of things that i muz first convince myself before i can convince otherwise! But it ain't easy to convince myself! You know why? Cos i always tend to think too much! As for my Mr A,B,C,D and E A:I no longer hold any more hopes! Because i think maybe it really is better to be very good friends with him.The way we are now is great cos at least i still have him as my friend. B:he's a Jerk and i know jacelyn definitly agrees with this! wahaha~~ i saw this big-headed ghost in Cine on 21/07 with this gf and another friend while waiting for my friend. C:He's too pretty for me lahx..haha~~After all he oso got gf le... D:Aiyo..i dunno how come jacelyn list him oso sia..Xiao didi yi ge! haha~~ he's only seventeen lehx..and is jace de lorx! all bacome push to me! Haha~~And btw, he aint singaporean which makes him the most special of all. He's a taiwanese! I super super long never talk to him le! E:He's someone i have yet to meet in person. But i chat with him everyday for a period of time especially when i was in taiwan! Haha~~ He live super near my house! Like that say like very obvious sia~~hAha~~ He's more like a friend lorx..Haha~~
Hmmm..that's all for mine le! Waiting for Mr F to appear! Wahaha~~ Anyone got any person to introduce a F to me? Heehee~~ Jace look out for me lehx...I know u got no more breakfast but u got morning tea now lehx...I got nothing left! Wahaha~~ My A-Z still got a long long way to go lehx...But like suddenly no more come out le! All disappear le lehx~~
I'm bored at work sia~~ But den i very cold sia~~ My colleague on MC today! Heehee~~ I can slack a little though my boss is in! But only got two of us so i dun care! My stomach very pain~~haiz..anyone wanna help me? haha~~
Now i understand what is the feeling of losing something that is precious and impt to me! I really understand the feeling already~~ Cos i am very sure that thing that i have lose is important to me! But i dun wan to put my dignity to get him back! I know i have to let go and this time i will learn how to let go! I should let go of everything and those few! I dunno how i really feel..What do i really miss? The person or the feeling of being cared for and loved? I really dunno but i think we are not meant to be or should i say i keep telling myself that we are not meant to be! I myself dun even know and understand what i wan so how can any one help me? Yesterday evening i think a lot and oso cry alot But i know crying wun help! It can't help me to solve my problems~~ i juz cry to relieve my stress~~ i feel very stressed up and frustrated ! On one hand is myself and the other is because of all those stupid customers some are really bitch lorx! I need not listen to u F** lorx.. i dun get commission so who cares?! After all thurs is my last day i need not bother either....the people here are nice to me~~ But there are some customers which i can't stand! Even if u buy a ticket or not, it doesn't affect my pay! Even if everyone complain about me, i oso wun get a cut in my pay So who cares about all those old bitches and spinsters out there! Get out of my sight lahx..Got money big deal ah?! F off lahx~~Do u know u make me sick?!
WOohOo~~I'm BaCk 2 bLoG~~ CoS I'm boReD at WorK~~ YeSterDay WenT to see JoNeS at J8~~ Jones is so shuai i at taiwan that time never see wrongly! Heehee~~Went to get his autograph! Can write name some more den still can take photo! wahaha~~ thanx Jernise help me to take the photo until so nice! heehee~~ He really can sing very well sia~~ He sing Hei Ye Guo Hou me and jace really very tao zui! haha~~ like that song a lot sia! heehee~~ next day i wan go his house there and wait for him! haha~~ so high sia! but he going china soon! at least 23 i still can hear him sing! cos got Z-pop~~ heehee! Yesterday, after event we went shopping den they came my house play mahjong! Ivy,. maggie abd jace! I first time play mahjong play until so funny and crazy lorx! haha ~~ super funny i tell u! can link to so many things.. can link to daniel, xiao nan, hrc ... haha~~ super funny! laugh until i can die especially jace sia~~ chicken and bird cannot differentiate still dare say this is chicken den still throw come out! haha~~next time come play again! super funny~~ hmmm..but because of something make until i quite sad! i really dun understand why will become like dat~~ if it is really meant to be den i oso got no choice lorx! what can i do other than accept the fact?! what's meant to be will be! So i shall accept the fact that maybe u have left I need to face reality~~ Please help me by not mentioning him though i might still see him but it's all over dun mention anymore ok? maybe in time to come, everything will be gone and no one remembers anyone between us! i guess i can only wait for that day to come right? Actually lately i did something very evil! i make use of someone ! I'm so sorry~~ i didn't mean to make use of you ~~ i regret doing it cos i know how u will feel if u found out why i actually did that i think i was really silly to do so~~ stupid of me! I will face reality1 What's gone wun be back.. Just like Lin Ting and my grandmother...
The Goddess of Stars and Hate. You are an independent leader. Always reflecting and pondering, you carry an air of mystery and you are exceptionally vengeful. You are a dazzling beauty.
You are the fairy of Fire! You are quite strong and powerful, people look up to you greatly and often seek your protection. You have the ability to gain many friends. Not everyone is capable of leadership but you certainly have the willpower and flare to do it. Please rate if you want to, it's just i spent ages making this quiz.
You are a perfect princess! You are every queens dream, amazingly beautiful, a joy for the spotlight and your dream is to get married and have a proud royal family. If any paparazzi come after you, one wink and an innocent smile is all it takes to dumbfound them. You have an immense sense of duty and would never go against the wishes of your family. You spend your time flicking through magazines looking for the latest clothes and jewellery. This doesnt mean youre an airhead though! Behind your striking appearance lies an amazing mind. You have the ability to conjure up the wittiest sayings and are immensely intelligent. Such a combination of intelligence, creativity, power and beauty is often intimidating to those around you.
You need friends. You have been very lonely in your life and people have, for one reason or another, stayed away from you. The isolation is killing you inside and all you want is to feel a connection with somebody else. You now have little self-esteem left inside and have dark thoughts about life and relationships. However you still have that crave of friends inside of you, even if you won't admit that to yourself anymore. And even if you do have a friend, you still feel lonely because you have a hard time letting people in since you have been isolated so long.
You are the loner girl. You have reasons for being a loner. You know people talk about you and it may seem like people don't like you but sometimes you can tell they don't want to but are pressured into it but it still hurts you. You see what's really happening under the surface of school/ work.
Life has no meaning and humans can't be saved. Although you have an urge to help in someway you give up before you even try. The reason is because you think you're a nobdy and therefor have no meaning to the world and can't help. All you do is watch life pass you by, becoming more deppressed each moment.
I'm STUPID, SILLY,UNREASONABLE,IRRITATING,COMPLICATED,NAIVE,DUMB,and whatever else u can think of ok? Happy with the description? After all everyone only knows how to make use of me and looking for me whenever u need help! Do i in any place look like i open a charity organisation or do i open a bank? a bank of all sorts? For ur info, i DUN! I give in many times because i cherish the friendship i dun hope that the friendship would become so fragile but now i can say me alone trying to maintain a friendship is not possible! I feel like i'm befriending myself! Pleasing myself and giving grace to myself! I am in my own world! In a world where i dun have a real friend. All i have is my family...Even my brother who is just like my character treats me better than my friends bt the naive me is always finding fault with my bro... These few days i was sad, i need not say but he know.. He give in to me in everything, asking me if i am ok But will keep quiet when he know that another question or comment and the tears will come flowing dowm without an end. I spend all my time in the room forcing myself to sleep so that i wun think of anyone He would come in on the fan for me den cover the blanket for me He would keep on checking on me and when he saw me perspiring under the blanket He would on the air-con for me! All these are done by my brother, someone whom i treat very badly compared to others in my family! And on sunday, i didn't go for my relative's funeral because of someone The person said he wanted to go out i waited the whole afternoon Den i spend the whole afternoon waiting and crying But who really knows? My maid and my brother... How can someone not know that i'm crying on the other end of the line? I held my hp waiting like a fool but others are enjoying themselves Other friends of mine, where are they? I dunno.. I only got awaken by my hp asking me of a favour.. So for the whole week i never heard from u all but only to see rejections when asked upon something and other than that is asking me of a favour? If that is really what friends meant to u all? Den i really have nothing to say! Sorry, i'm juz tired ! Tired of everything! tired of LIFE! Tired of listening! Tired of talking Tired of being there for u when u need me Tired of letting u kick me around when i am of no use Tired Tired Tired Really very tired to continue living in this world I walk around aimlessly everywhere alone yesterday I off my hp because i am TIRED ! I was thinking if i were to leave this world at that moment would anyone know other than my family? I guess NO! No one will know! Cos i'm no body's friend! I only know i have my 304 gers but i know u all are busy! After all u gers are the only darlings that care i guess! I still wun on my hp cos after all no one will look for me except for my family! So it doesn't matter ! If u are looking for me because u need a favour from me! U can forget all abt looking for me! Juz take it that I'm dead! OK?! How i wish i could be dead! I hate this miserable world~~ Really! If u think all these is nonsense and rubbish den so be it! Pls take it that i'm dead~~ Dead without a shell so there wun be any funeral ! I wun go out and kill myself~~~ How i will die will remain a mystery~~ I might not blog anymore! It all depends! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I miss my YIDA dear a lot! haven visit the kids for quite some time le! Very long never see them! I miss them a lot sia! They are the only precious darlings that i miss and care They make me feel fortunate that i am normal! I'll remember everything we went thru! Juz being there to see them can bring a wide smile on their face! My heart ache when i see them and i'm glad whenever i see a smile on their face I'll always remember the scene when it was my last day at SCAS! And it was going to be a holiday soon Den YIDA boy seems to know what is going on But he cannot speak so he could only cry and cry when he had to board the van to go home in Den he refused to get on the van Both of us cannot bear that but we both know he had to go home I had to console him and promised that i'll go back to see him I really missed the 9sessions that we spend at SCAS Though at the beginning we tot of stop going But i'm glad we persisted and went on! I really love all the kids there! My Darling YIDA boy! Though i always get his saliva all over me when i feed him People might feel disgusted but he's still a dear to me! Someone whom i'll love forever and not forget~~ Thinking of him can make me cry~~~
hmmmm..a boring day to start off..sianz.. very tired sia..nothing to do at work.. partly because VN got no more promotional seats available den all those stingy and troublesome passengers.. dun bear to pay $70 more for a higher ticket with lesser restrictions.. so irritating! always make me feel like screaming into their ears lorx.. den come down to offiice pretend to be so nice! kns~~ feel like telling them dun pretend lahx.. haha...i very evil horx..cos stephanie is my CEO ah..no choice! hmmm..bored bored at work..maybe i should start doing some useful things for my boss.. haha~~ rather den always slacking! stupid AIO is so irritating ~~ cannot go in! hmmm..should stop here! if i have time later den post another update! heehee~~
hmmm..it's been quite a while since i last blog seh~~ heehee...The last post was on 16 June.. The day before Daniel reach Singapore~~ Heehee..i shall leave out the days that Daniel was in Singapore~~ I think the memories are nice and pleasant enough for me~~ And it shall remain in my heart.. Anyway, I took leave on 17 and 18 June den 21 and 22 i took MC sia... haha~~ 22 after daniel leave for malaysia i went to work for half day den after work went out again to watch movie.. reach home already past midnight again~~ super tired sia! anyway, 29 June got orientation at SIM.. quite fun and made quite a number of friends that is oso doing marketing~~ The people there is quite nice and there is this ger called Eileen staying at Sengkang, nearest to me le... but we are the two living furtherest from the sch sia.. We both signed up for student council and yesterday i received a call to go down for an interview but i still thinking if i should go cos i wan to join dance club.. cos the interest is there lahx.. but cannot deny that student council is fun... haiz..still thinking if i should go for the interview... sianz..anyway, tmr is kian boon's birthday sia..haha..dunno whether they going to celebrate or something.. till now no one told me anything so i oso dunno! heehee~~ yest celebrated gong gong birthday! ate at the kopitiam downstairs very full sia! To Mabel : I'll learn to pretend tt i dun wan eat the crab den people will help u right? haha~~ i jus need to look at my daddy and he will settle the crab for me! heehee~~ but nvm lahx..u got naez to help u! heehee~~ I wan to go bangkok shopping! but they say should go on weekends.. but weekends mummy alone in the shop how can? Den mabel oso wun wan to go on weekends de bahx.. haiz..tiger airways is so irritating! i wan go shopping i wan to buy new clothes.. but first i think i wanna slim down a little bit first lehx.. heehee.. first thing to do is not to eat too heavy after 8... and drink more water - plain water.. heehee...daddy promise to pay for my yoga so maybe i can consider going~~ maybe after 16 july cos then i will be free mahx... heehee~~ shall stop here bah..talking all sorts of rubbish already! i wan a 304 outing~~ miss everyone sia.. somemore that time lih fang jie sms me sia.. she sms me abt daniel ! heehee~~ i miss lih fang jie sia..so long neva see her le... and oso every one in 304!
