islenska 06.07.06 __I wiLL aLwAys <3 U`!
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Friday, June 29, 2007

Did not work yesterday and i went to ICA to collect my passport and i waited for half an hr..
considered quite ok cos it was lunch time when i went.haha~
anyway, after collecting my passport i went to marina square to meet long and cheryl
ok i was an hr late! Oops! sorry~
haha~~
went for lunch and then went to kbox!
It was like a maze inside and our room is super far
really walk untill will giddy ~~ haha~
and the toilet is far but the room is quite big.
though there were only 4 of us
long ge cheryl val and me
we did had alot of fun.
and i am very sure this is the first ktv session that we took so many photos..
haha..and it is also the first time we sing a hokkien song...wahaha..
it was really funny and we had great laughs especially by cheryl's performance
and val u really got to sing more...haha..
u see cheryl she now oso can sing le..
haha~~jiayou~~looking forward to the next ktv session.
after ktv we went to funan as ms cheryl wants to buy earphones..like the 100th time she spoilt her earphones..
haha..saw lu lu..haha
after buying we went to the language school to enquire about the japanese course
i decide to take on korean only after i master the japanese.
think it will take me quite a while lahx..wahaha..
then we went to raffles city to eat
we ate The Soup Spoon
haha..we sat the seat with the best view and i think long didnt even realise
but cheryl i saw u staring at the hmmm..haha
caught in the act! wahaha..
u should learn from me..heehee..pretend to stare at the menu
haha~~
but i think he'll be thinking why i keep looking at the menu..wahaa
really heard alot of funny stuffs at dinner yesterday..really had fun
den i went to look for my parents
they were at a funeral with my grand uncles and aunties
saw eugene (my little distant cousin)
he's so cute! haha.. took him like 15 mins before he finally decide to call us..
and he got bullied in sch which everyone tot was funny
cos at home he's like the bully but in school he's so quiet.
haha..
after that chatted with the elderly there and it was really funny
stayed there till 12plus before we decide to head home
reached home at abt 1.30
and darling sky woke up to greet and kiss me
haha~~
den slept at about 2.30 i think
i was talking to mummy until i realise she fell asleep
haha~~
now at work again..
i am really bored and i am so lazy that i decide to wear specs to work
and now they say they are thinking of going to far east plaza today
haha~~
stuns! wish me good luck that we can go home early tonight ok?
tmr will be coming to work first then maybe go to the language school with long ge
den after that head down to pasir ris for bbq~~
hmmm..hope we have fun there..
i'm only afraid that i would be too tired to enjoy at all.
i am going to sun tan and swim on sunday..
wahaha...swimming again!
i have been swimming once a week lately
really like to swim nowadays
i am bored.
school is starting!
i finally realise that i have been very silly to be holding on to things which i know is never possible..they were just two people whom i should not like at all actually~
this is bad and i am feeling very miserable
it was the same for HIM and XX
haiz.. why do i always get stuck in such things
it's freaking irritating!
i hate it~~
i wan to forget but i cant
how?
i really am very tired
all i ever wanted was someone who could hold my hand
and lead me through everything in life.
and i just wan to know tt no matter what happens
he'll be there holding my hand and we'll overcome the obstacles ahead together.
of cos he also has to give me a sense of security and also must have the ability to take care of me.
is this difficult and too high an expectation?

<3 DJ BabY@* 10:28 AM
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

I am bored and not feeling good..
i'm in a very foul mood but i dunno why..
haha..sounds so dumb.
i am angry with myself for being so naive
why do i believe everything that others say.
this feeling sucks!
i wan to turn back time..
turn back till last year july when i was all happy and cheerful
i hate my life here
i wan to leave
i wan to go overseas and spend the rest of my life somewhere else
but of cos with my family
guess i really should start carrying out on leaving
for that place i need to stay there 6 yrs to get PR which is not bad
i can work and do things i like.
guess the only things i will miss are my true friends
those who are just fair-weathered friends or whatever motives u have
fuck off i dun miss such people..
sorry very vulgar...bad mood !
i am not talking abt this to others not because i dun trust anyone
but because i dunno where to start and wad to say
my mind and heart is in a mess..
dammit.
my passport is ready for collection...
i wan to go JB who want to be my bodyguard?
haha~~
fuckers pls stay out of my side.
i wan go genting holiday...
i wan to go and enjoy myself for a few days
i have been thinking alot latelt
and the more i think
the more i cry
and the more i cry
the more i feel silly
urgh!
i wan to be strong like how HE used to tell me..
but i cant.
One reason why i cut my hair is because i want a new one
i wan to be strong but sometimes i really need a shoulder to lean on
i know i have my dad to talk to
but i dun wan him to be worried
and i dun wan to add to his burden
i only want him to be happy.
people will think my dad is weird cos he always say stay single good
get married alot of problems..
but dun worry my parents' marriage is fine they arent going thru any troubles.
people would be thinking why he dun wan his daughter to get married
cos he is very protective towards me and i am happy to just have him.
glad enough. i really dun mind not getting married and just say by his side forever.
he's the best dad one could ever wish for.
ask my cousins and you will know.
even my friends think that my dad is nice.
when i go out late he would still come and pick me up.
anyway, i'll try to be strong because of my family
as for HIM, guess i'll still hang on first
maybe until HE gets together with the ger ba.
i want to see HIM happy.

anyway, updates for the week
tmr (27/06/07-wed)
might be going phuture.not sure cos might have a change of plans.
not many ppl going ah..haha
thurs(28/06/07-thurs)
i'm going ktv. and my dear friends pls dun be alarmed if karen starts crying.
haha..cos so far i only cried in ktv when i went with jace they all.
fri(29/06/07-fri)
definitely going to work till late..should be glad if i can go home at 9
haha
saturday(30/06/07-sat)
OMG! i have to work~ haha..too bad cos it's the yr end closing and have to stand by in case any invoices come in late.
and near evening got bbq!
with the haising ppl..i enjoy their company after nt meeting them for so long
they are always nice to me. haha..
always remember the small little things the guys would do for me
and poor joon always bully by me
last time always ask him to carry my bag for me
haha~~even in orchard road. haha~~
best brother..haah..oh yah..to them, i am almost like a brother..haha
i can finally go take a stroll at pasir ris beach.
dun ask why i couldnt do it at ECP
cos freaking saturday got so many ppl lahx...
sunday(01/07/07)
hmmm..nth up yet but think i wanna rest at home or maybe i will go swimming
see how..haha~~

school is starting on 02/07/07
cant wait
i want to get myself busy
but i know i will start to complain after that again.
as usual complaining is my forte.
haha..
bleahx!
i miss the SIM babes..of cos not forgetting the guys like our handsome uncle kel, our shaun kevin long ge..haha
we must jiayou for this sem and make sure all things go smoothly and we'll all be happy at the end of june next yr.
haha~~
let's work towards it!

suddenly i have been missing my yida darling and i want to go visit them
i miss them so much
cos only when i am with them the real me appears.
yes i am saying that i am always putting up a false front
i am so fortunate compared to them
but i want to make them feel fortunate too
i hate and condemn those ppl who sees them differently.
they are oso human beings and furthermore they are kids.
and cant u all be more compassionate against them?
they are simple and innocent
why cant u all show love care and concern for them?

<3 DJ BabY@* 11:14 AM
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Monday, June 25, 2007


Haha..did this in the office when i was bored..heehee..i know this is very very lame but i am just plain bored so bear with me...enjoy...

You Are Smokin' Hot
You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal.Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.
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The PJ's You Are Most Like: Underwear
You enjoy the simple things in life and aren't hard to pleaseYou have an understated, easy sexiness that men loveAnd you're confident enough to pull it off - without being overbearing



You Are 17 Years Old
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.


You Are 12% Nerdy
You are definitely not nerdy - in fact, you probably don't know any nerds.You probably care a little too much about your image. No one will know if you secretly watch Star Trek reruns!


Never Date a Cancer
Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches.And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return.
Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius


Your Love Quote
You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it.


Your Deadly Sins
Envy: 80%
Pride: 60%
Sloth: 40%
Greed: 20%
Lust: 20%
Wrath: 20%
Gluttony: 0%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%
You will die a boring death. While dying, you will be jealous of those who die dramatic deaths.


You Are a Coy Flirt
You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing.You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.


You Are 71% Jealous
You're a pretty jealous person, and you've started to let it really effect your life.While it's natural to feel a little envious of what people have, it's never healthy to take it to these extremes.Focus on what you've got going on. And improve on the things you don't like.Being truly happy with yourself is the only way to chase out the green eyed monster!


You Are 20% Weird
Not enough to scare other people...But sometimes you scare yourself.


Your Seduction Style: The Charmer
You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.
You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.
By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.
And then you've got them exactly where you want them!


Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating
You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.


You Are Fairly Skeptical
You're not the type of person who will fall for anything...But you do keep your mind open to all sorts of possibilities.You figure that anything could be true. After all, the world is a strange place.However, you're going to need some convincing before you can believe in aliens or reincarnation!


You Are Sometimes Considered a Hot Chick
While you may not get the most offers in the room,You've got a good thing going - dating wiseYou could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guysBut in general, you are doing just fine!


Your Body Image is 28% Unhealthy, 72% Healthy
You're body image is quite healthy, though you're sometimes a little bit too hard on yourself.Chances are you've got a rockin' body - so enjoy it!


Your Dominant Intelligence is Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence
You are naturally athletic and coordinated, good at making your mind and body work together.Sports are fun and easy for you, especially those requiring good hand - eye coordination.There's also a good chance you're a great dancer, or good at expressing yourself through body language.You learn best by doing, and you feel like you've always got to be moving (even if it's just your hands).
You would make a good athlete, physical education teaches, dancer, actor, firefighter, or artisan.


You're Totally Sarcastic
You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.


You Are 52% Spoiled
You're a little spoiled, but you're not spoiled rotten.You love to be showered with gifts and affection, but you're good at keeping your demands to a minimum!


Men See You As Desirable
Men often find you immediately attractive and sensualYou're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys inYou are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggagePacking light means you enjoy new relationships easily


Your Love Life Secrets Are
Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.
In fights, you seek compromise and back down from conflict. You always try to smooth things out.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.


You Are An Invisible Ex
You're so over your ex, you hardly even remember you have an exYou prefer leave all of the baggage behind you - far, far behindAs they say, indifference is the opposite of love!


You Are Very Happy Being Single
You're not anti-relationship. You just don't need one to be content.You find plenty of happiness from your life as it is.And if you find someone you love, then that's just icing on an already decadent cake!


You Follow Your Heart
You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind




You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy
While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for timeWhether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses...... You don't give men enough of your time.As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing.


Your Seduction Style: Prized Object
The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get.You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them.The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase.
You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away.You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance.Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't!
You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors.Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor.You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.


HIM

He's Not Interested This Year
Maybe he's been interested before, but he's over it.And it looks like you're the one into him!If you think you could get him to like you, then go for it.If not, at least you know not to waste your time.


XX

He Is So Into You!
Come on, why was there any question in your mind?If he hasn't asked you out yet, he will!All signs point to strong flirtation - And that's always a good thing.


Your Kissing Technique Is: Passionate but Aggressive
Hey, slow it down a little!Yes, you've got some killer kissing moves...But that doesn't mean you need to show off ten minutes worth of technique in ten seconds.Take your time. A little passion goes a long way.Are You a Good Kisser?


Your Passion is Purple!
You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve.If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through.But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack.You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.


Your Lust Quotient: 54%
You are definitely a lustful person, but you do a good job of hiding it.Your friends would be surprised to know that your secretly very wild!


You Are a Tiny Tease
You like to flirt and show off your body, but what confident woman doesn't.You enjoy male attention, and you're usually pretty good at not leading men on.However, there are times when you get carried away with your sexy behavior.It's okay to use your amazing flirting powers for good - but never for evil!


You Are a Passionate Kisser
You are the most likely type to kiss a sexy stranger
Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited
You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat
It's all about where your passion leads you


You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age
You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself.You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.


You are a City Girl!
Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl.You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion.And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun.Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!


Guys Like That You're Fun
You're the type of girl guys brag about knowingThat's because you're cool, funny, and laid backYou're smart enough to know how to be one of the guysBut flirty enough to know how to make them all want you


Your Mind is PG-13 Rated
Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy.You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.


Your Japanese Name Is...
Toki Nakayama


You Are 77% Feminist
You are certainly a feminist - whether you know it or not.You believe in gender equality, at least most of the time. You also believe there are a few exceptions.


You Are a Beagle Puppy
Cheerful, energetic, and happy go lucky.And you're sense of smell is absolutely amazing!


Your Love Is Represented By a Red Rose
You love passionately and fully, without any reservations.And while romantic love comes easily for you, you also love many people platonically. You are a true romantic, and you always can see the best in people.


You Are Bad Girl Sexy
Girl, you are nothing but trouble. And that's hot.You've got the classic bad girl sexiness mojo going on.And your badass attitude makes men fear you - and crave you.Don't give into people who say to tone it down. You're perfect as is.


You Are 60% Intuitive
Your intuition is often right, and you use it more than you may realize.Your gut feelings are usually a good guide, but you need more to go on when making a decision.You'll often check to see if the facts back up your feelings.And when your intuition is wrong, you work to improve it for the future.


Your Kissing Purity Score: 66% Pure
For you, kissing isn't a casual thing
Lip to lip action makes your heart sing


You Are A Professional Girlfriend!
You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

<3 DJ BabY@* 2:45 PM
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The traffic in Singapore is getting bad to worse i think.
So much about road courtesy and i really think people should take a look
at what always happens at the T-Junction at clarke quay mrt station there.
The pedestrians are in grave danger when all the drivers are so impatient and
not at all giving way. They horn like nobody's business.
The world is so XXX

23/06/07 - Saturday

Met up with joon (beng), shun(seng) and gf, xiu, ty and lu to go to ECP
went roller blade and cycling. I dun wan wounds on myself hence i chose to cycle.
haha..we alighted at the wrong stop and yes i wun say more abt it cos the poor guy who asked us to alight was attacked by everyone especially shun! haha..
we walked very very far and then we finally reached and rented whatever we want.
Me and ty cycled. While the rest except fot shun's gf who decides to walk.
We had a lot of fun and stopping in the midst to rest and also to take pictures.whaha
We saw cindy, jin ju and cui fang there too..
haha...
Went to parkway parade to eat ajisen and the poor shun ate till his face was as red as my spicy miso ramen soup. poor thing!
haha~~
wanted to go kbox but everyone says it's too expensive so we went to settler's cafe.
and we had so much fun there. we played the vampire game that stress so many of them. haha
we had so very silly games and joon and i played this very interesting game that i got addicted to it. it's called lost cities if i am not wrong. very fun. but the rest of the 5 keep insisting we played another game which i dunno the name. I could have died laughing from it. and i had a sore throat and lost my voice for a while after playing the game. We were laughing and making so much noise that everyone there was staring at us and they were so interested in what we were playing.
the funniest is the moo meow squeak croak quack psst maa..and everyone trying to call the right name. it was very hilarious but 3 hrs past very quickly and we headed home.
Reached home aching but didnt sleep. went online and chatted with XX.
he was not in a good mood so we were smsing and then he took quite a while to reply.
waited till 3 plus and i couldnt take it anymore especially after the day of activities i fell asleep.

24/06/07 - Sunday
No tuition from now on already. woke up very late and i could feel my body aching
but agreed to go swimming with XX.
went to compass point to buy the charles and keith shoe that i was eyeing for a long time
den went to meet him. went up to his place cos he said he wanted to take a rest first.
waited for quite a while cos he had to settle some stuffs first and den we went over to his other house to swim. it was about 7.45 when we went to swim and it ws freaking cool
quite nice of him to accompany me to swim cos he was really really tired. haha..
chatted for a while but concluded that it was to cool to be chatting in the pool.went to bath den we headed home.
my troubles are never ending and while i am brooding over it someone called. haiz..
i really dunno what more to say. i am tired very tired.
i have gotten over it but why cant he?

Everyday, my mind is bothered by 3 person..they are XX, HIM (as always forever thinking and missing him) and the past(this is a person but i just have to name him as the past).
Lately i have been thinking should i let go of HIM. Waited and hanged on for years but it is clear now that nothing is going to happen aint it? HE did tell me he likes someone and i really should move on. But i cant. WHY?
the past - i really am over and have nothing more to say but he has to call and make stupid remarks and it would end up being my fault.
it was like that when we were together and now it is still the same.
urgh! irritating!
XX - nth to say. i do miss him a little though i am not suppose to and it really complicated.

will upload the photos we took on saturday..not alot but i will still upload.

<3 DJ BabY@* 10:48 AM
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Friday, June 22, 2007

I think i made a fool out of myself in front of him.
Why on earth did i have to do such a thing. haiz..
It is just so wrong for me to have done that...
I feel like a bitch though he say i'm not..
I hate myself but i'm glad someone talked to me.
To all my other friends out there,
thanks for all the care and concern..really appreciated.
Without u all, i might have gotten a depression and i wun be me anymore.
although, i feel that i have changed i hope it is for the better.
i'll learn thru all the mistakes and i'll take a step at the time.

To all the people who are also facing problems relating to anything and everything..
stay strong overcome it and you'll do fine and great!
I can always lend a listening ear..
just call me!
If u need a shoulder u can have mine to lean on..
i promise myself to stay strong.
no matter how much i feel like crying i will always try to control my tears and be strong.
i'm glad to have alot of nice people in my life who can tell that i aint feeling good
and they will always cheer me up.
Thanks..

I'm very very happy that now i can share so much with HIM
although i know now that i should let go like i said it aint easy but i got to..
cos HIS her aint me..
It's someone else
Continue will not do me or HIM any better..
I shall learn to accept this fact i can foresee myself tearing again and again
but i will try to make sure soon there aint any more.
i cant cry at home cos i dun wan my parents to worry unless they aint home yet
i hope i can start telling sky all my problems
just like how i talked to mickey everytime when i am feeling down
i hope sky will understand my feelings.
though i dun need him to feel sad for me cos he's still young he should stay happy.
i am working and shopping to forget all troubles
but after that i will still start thinking of it.
but since i decide to take a step ahead i should stick to it and be strong.
I can't force someone to love me
and since i love HIM so much
i should let HIM go
i just want HIM to be happy.
HIS smile can brighten one's day and i'll always remember that smile.
It's all i have left that can keep me going.

<3 DJ BabY@* 10:04 AM
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Sunday, June 17, 2007

I think i should give up already..yes i know i have been saying it for very long time already but i guess now should be the time. i just want him to be happy and together with the girl he likes and he does deserves all the love from her and hope that they would be happy together(if they do get together).
I would give them my blessings and watch him smile from afar. I would be contented because all i want is for him to be happy. When u love someone, u dun need them to be by your side. You would be happy to know that they are happy and they are living happily. That should be sufficient as i am not as important as his happiness. I am sure i would cry but it would stop one day and all the tears i cry because of him is still worth it. I just hope that he knows i am always here for him.


<3 DJ BabY@* 6:49 PM
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Thursday, June 14, 2007

Was digging for something when i open my drawer which have been locked for a long long time already
Guess what i found?
I found many many letters in there.
Letters during my JC times.
haha~~
i read it and i just thought it was funny but i did felt very sour in my heart.
Me and a few friends were quite close until i couldn;t really remember what happen but in the end a quarrel split the class gers. Was readign thru the letters i felt sad.
I wanted to cry and i really mean cry real hard.
till today i am still brooding over the same matter that we were talking about as always in the letters.
and those letters were in JC1. So that was 4years back.
Just wondering how long den would anyone give up on the someone that they like?
2years? 3 years?
Anyone was reading the letters and i saw this poem which made me damn damn sad
this is something that my classmate once wrote and i felt very sad.
cos i'm worried i would be in the same situation as in the poem.
i duno when it would be but i really dun hope to be in the situation.
Anyway, here it is for share.
But i have to say again i didn't write it it was written by my JC classmate.
Cannot reveal cos there might be other secrets that would be revealed with it too.

Here it goes...

After all
I know the truth still lingers
It's not me
It's her for always
I can't bear to let this truth haunt my memory
But it is the truth
I have to accept it
In time to come
I hope these wounds will heal
For now, I'll try to act as if
It doesn't matter
That it's her, not me
I have to convince myslef it is
Better
To see him happy is all i wish
All the best to him and her
I shall sit back
To wait and see
Their friendship changing into a long-lasting relationship.

I know the him does like someone now but i dunno who she is
and i fear
i am struggling!
i want to know and i dun want to know
i fear what i hear is not what i expect and hope to hear
i am very confused
these few days i felt like crying but have been controlling
how much longer can i control.
I almost cried when i hear the song that reminds me of him but i controlled
i remember i always cry when i sing that song at that time when i told myself to forget about him
how sad is it to still be singing that song.
I remember the first time my friends saw me cry when i sang that song they were shocked
cos always i would control but that tme i really couldn't
it's bad when i am left alone nowadays
i would sit in the bus listen to my mp3 and start thinking
and i could feel tears welling up in my eyes.

<3 DJ BabY@* 2:54 PM
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Monday, June 11, 2007

Sky i love you you are all that i have now.
though we all miss mickey i must admit i really miss mickey alot cos i loved him and i still do
but to be denied to seeing him hurts me den u came into my life
u brighten up my life
you shine and you are such a treasure
you won the hearts of everyone in the family
even gong gong loves you
you are very lucky
someone suggests bringing you to sentosa
are u happy?
we'll all go to sentosa after your third vaccination ok?
but u have to promise me you learn where to pee and poo and be a good boy
stop biting all of us
haha~~
everyday we'll be screaming cis you are teething.
haha~but we still love you nevertheless
i love ur silly and cute expression
love the way ur little tail wag
love the way you whine for attention (though it's not good)
we all love you!
Promise us u will be strong and healthy ok?
if possible maybe i can arrange uncle simon to let you visit your siblings even after they are bought.
be a good healthy and strong boy and we'll give you many mum mum and i'll bring you out more often after i go learn how to drive car ok?
wahah...
you're such a darling
glad u came into my life when i was down
waiting for the day that i can share my problems with you
and hope you will understand
cos now you are way too hyper for that
and you wun stop biting.
i miss mickey who would know how i felt
he'll allow me to cuddle him when i am sad and he understands everything that i say
3 months is enough to make me miss him forever
but dun worry i am sure we'll love you and
we'll give you all the love that we had for mickey
mickey and you (sky) will always be in my heart
but we all feel you are so alike mask(the jack russell we had when i was in sec sch)
you are just so like her.
forever running around the house
but you are cuter cos you like to bite everything u can see (once again, that's not right!)
haha
love you still and forever

here's some pictures of sky for those who have been hearing so much about him but have not seen him yet..

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<3 DJ BabY@* 10:41 AM
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i'm back here again.
lately, many things have been running thru my mind and i am really confused.
i dunno what to do and i dunno who to believe.
i'm tired and i hate those back stabbers in my life i wish that they could all disappear
(cos i dun wan to curse them here and ruin my mood)
have been wanting to cry
i want to go to the beach for a stroll
who wants to go with me?
anyone volunteer?
got car better ah if not den take bus take taxi lorx.
but i prefer take taxi..ok i'll pay for the ride if anyone volunteers
haha..but i still wan consider the company ah..
haha..
i am such a bitch
if u think u are a back stabber in my life and you want to see me break down
please go away (dun wan to be vulgar otherwise it would be **** off)
haha~~
i hate my life
i hate myself
but i know i wun do anything to hurt myself
no more cuts on my hand like what i used to do in sec sch
how childish was that when i look back now.
i should be glad most of the scars have healed and i guessed u cant see any more scars

<3 DJ BabY@* 10:26 AM
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OUR SONG


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21+ / 22-
22 Oct
Libra
Taken and attached to Mr B-J
Silly and crys easily(not as if i want to)
Tend to think a lot and kinda too much
Hot-tempered and very stubborn
Dun step on my Toes or u will regret it
Very indecisive so dun ask me to decide
Been hurt deeply by love and dunno who to trust anymore
Studying in SIM-RMIT - Marketing
Crazy ger who laugh non stop [muscles are forming on my cheekbone]
Very 'gong' - stupid and dumb!

 Love & Hate

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~DJ Baby
~Singing
~Dancing
~Hanging out with friends
~Shopping
~Swimming
~Talking
~Disney Mickey Mouse - I cant resist buying mickey mouse stuffs!
~watching soccer
~crying
~watching movies

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~Liars
~Preverts
~People wiith ATTITUDE PROBLEM
~Back-stabbers
~Flirts ~Players



Wants

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~New ME! (den maybe i wun let tt happen)
~To be who i used to be 10 years back
~Hit 50kg
~To spend more time with Baby and Darling sky
~iRiver Mickey Mouse Mp3 player
~Money (muz be more practical)
~New Clothes
~LV Speedy 30
~LV/Gucci Wallet
~Wished that day would stop forever
~Holiday–Bangkok for Shopping Spree
~Another big big mickey mouse soft-toy
~To go to Tokyo Disneyland
~That i have HIM (how impossible)
~Good Grades for this SEM
~Could live healthier
~Get to see Mr J soon..miss him lots!
~Talk To Jia Song again..


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=Stephaine=
=Clarice=
=Mei Yi=
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=Karlyn=




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