Hmmm...i am lost very lost... just hoping i can see light at the end of this long-winding road hope that someone can hold on to my hand and lead me throughtout i dun like the feeling of moving ahead alone... i guess i am more suitable to walk this path on my own.. no longer have the guts to find someone who will walk with me i dun like to exist in a world of lies, i want to hide away hide away from reality be like a tortoise u may say hiding in my shell i wanna hide away forever pls let me be for i guess i will be happier this way no one understands what i am feeling inside and i dunno how to explain but i juz wanna escape.. dun call or sms me unless it is really urgent sorry if i dun ans ur calls or reply u it might be because i wanna hide away i dun hab the mood to reply or i just want to disappear for a while pls pardon me... i will be back when i am fine i hope to be strong soon and be who i used to be
i m so bored...slacking slacking slacking everyday.. i think i am getting very anti-social.. i oso dunno why..i dun like to talk much or go out anymore.. i like to hide at home or just leave all my time to myself...going to become a loner soon.. my daily routine: wake up , prepare to go work together with mabel, read book and listen to song on MRT, den go to work, eat lunch with mabel, after work take MRT home - as usual read book and listen discman..reach home, bathe eat and watch tv den slp. This is how i pass my day everyday.. as for sat and sun i will also stay at home.. Dunno where to go or what to do so stay at home and save money lorx... Read my book and watch vcd... This is the freedom i have and i need not care abt what others think happy to be alone until someone comes along.. i am still unable to open my heart and allow people to know more abt the real me.. all along i must say i am wearing a mask..to everyone! i dun really see any meaning abt putting a smile on my face to everyone cos i know the smile i put up will be very fake. these days i often talk online and chat with quite a lot of hong kong ppl haha..quite fun lahx but it is just for fun de lorx... cos i am so bored at work... den on fri i got a shock..haha..this taiwan guy that i knoe online.. he started talking abt many things..and den dunno why we talk until long distance r/s den he ask if he stand a chance... he is quite a nice guy but i nv ans him... i think he's a very sensible guy but i dunno..haha.. i got no faith in myself i guess...after all i must say taiwan guys all very hao se and he also say it's true..haha..den we all talk abt alot of things... so far i haven tell him anything yet and he oso neva ask me so i guess we will see how as time goes ba... but i knoe it will take a lot of effort to maintain a long dustance relationship... we both know it is going to be tough.. however, i knoe i cannot accept him now.. after all i dun really knoe him well and also i dun have those kinda feelings for him but i can say he is a very sensible and nice guy...very caring... maybe all i wan knoe is just someone who can care and look after me but he is in taiwan...anyway, i knoe i cant accept someone if i dun like him so i wun accept him at the moment... he also says if i can find someone in sg den i shld be with e guy in sg cos it is more practical and stuff which i guess is true... =X
haven been blogging for some while.. last post was by mabel..haha.. she was bored so i gave her something to do.. anyway, lately have been busy or trying to be busy with my job.. working at a travel agency dealing with mostly Vietnam Airlines. Get to see Vietnam shuai ge..but lately it's quite disappointing.. Cos on my first day of work, i saw two very shuai ones.. But now, the standard seems to be falling..haha.. Anyway, worked for one week plus and i have learnt a lot of stuff.. learnt booking, issue of tickets and more.. Working at Furama Hotel Shopping Centre.. But one thing i dislike is the toilet..we can't use furama hotel toilet Instead we have to use an isolated toilet which is kinda eerie... haha..i dun like the feeling.. Overall, though the pay is LOW (i really mean low) but not bad for the experience and every other thing. heehee..realise got so many people in travel trade sia..haha.. ok, enough of my job.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ our dance project is still in the making waiting for our main sponsor to look for more co-sponsor hopefully we can get HRC and FOXY to come over to Singapore for our Dance Unleashed vol 1 (nice name?!) credit to a bboy in singapore haha...can't say much about this cos many things are not confirm yet ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yesterday went to watch NKF show..Tickets given to us by JEFF WANG JIAN FU wahaha..muz acknowledge him lahx..cos he gave us 6 tickets de.. Ask me frankly, i dunno i go there to see who de..haha.. Cos though i like Energy but not like before le.. In the past will be very crazy but now is just see their dance lorx.. And i almost went deaf yesterday cos the whole gallery is Energy Fans and a few Ex-Energy Fans (can like tt say ba)..haha.. Today my throat a bit pain but is not because i shout for Energy.. I never shout at all for Energy cos my voice wun make any difference there.. haha..my throat will pain is becos shout for ZEN and JEFF... haha..so funny rite? ENERGY at e programme but i was shouting for ZEN and JEFF... haha...i think it is hilarious...Both me and Jace thinks that yesterday ZEN was looking for Maggie.. Cos he kept looking at the Gallery after the show... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My feelings these few days is that i juz want to have time for myself Dun really like to talk to anyone..I oso dunno why.. Feeling kinda down...still trying to adjust my feelings for everything Towards A i hope that we can stay the way we are... Good Friends Once in a while go out and watch a movie and stuff will do.. More than contented...Hope to have him by my side forever so being best of friends is more practical B he is no longer in my life, i dun have anything to do with him anymore..should say at the start oso dun hab anything le.. C i dun dare to wish for anything. Being friends already very happy le..Glad that we got to know him and hope the friendship will last too.. D haha..he was declared by Jace de..wahaha..not bad though younger than me.. But i dun have the guts to have a long distance relationship and he also got like a ger le...haha..so maybe can regard him as a younger brother.. E i really dunno got what to say...cos i ain't sure myself too...All i can hope is that i myself will know soon how i really feel ba..Jace says she feels that i like him..Maybe ba..cos i realise i do miss him at times..But do i really like him? I already dun dare to like anyone le as in fall in love and be committed... But....................
Haha.i can't believe it. The first time in my life that i'm blooging, i'm actually blogging at someone's website on behalf of her because she is bored or rather lazy. haha. It's kind of fun to blog. on behalf of someone else. hee. okay, so what shld i talk about. Maybe about yesterday when me and karen were at home becoz both of us were semi sick. what a coincidence. In the afternoon, i sneak over to her house and both of us started crazily to watch nan ding ge er. wow.. we watch like 7 disc at a go. i stopped at 6.45pm. i wan to watch the 7 o clock show. she continue watching until 10+. she's crazy. i wonder why she still manage to get up the next day to go to work. haha. The show is damn funny. both of us were rolling with laughter on the bed. The kunda is sooo cute. his actions are dump and stupid but of course entertaining too. haha. actors do have to act stupid once to be funny ya.. haha. well.. let me see. karen is busy this few days about her HRC project. hmm, sounds like a major production though. I don't really know what's going on though, so i'm won't be able to go into detail about this subject ya? maybe next time she will talk about it. i got nothing much to say liao le. stay haPpy =) oh and i forgot to add that karen has found a new job. although it's very low paying but it's better than no work to do right? her working place is just round the corner of mine. we're having lunch together often.. hee. byeee...
Once again..i am very bored...pardon me for all these rubbish..haha.. cos i really dunno where to begin saying from.. furthermore, i dunno what to say.. anyway, i found a job..a damn freaking low paid job... 850 and i work half an hr more evryday..wth.. anyway, here are the results for the quiz...
You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing, but never lasting.
haiz..i dunno why but i feel very troubled.. am i missing U? i dunno..but one thing i am sure.. U dun miss me at all.. I know we aren't meant to be.. i will forget U i need time.. it might take a while but i will forget U... Dun worry..i will be fine again...
i ain;t feeling happy at all.. why? i dunno.. i dunno how to describe what i am feeling now but it's juz a mess.. a very big mess.. juz like me myself.. writing it out here wun help a bit i guess.. so no point... i might not feel good keeping it inside but i feel safer that way.. furthermore, i dunno where to start saying from..
