hmmm..juz came home
feeling very sad..
i think my mouth really quite cursed lehx..
i was juz thinking maybe i would see XXX
when i was alone walking to go find maggie and huiqi
den indeed!!! I saw XXX..
Many should be thinking i should be happy ya?
NAh..i felt like crying on the spot..
he was with a ger..
no big deal rite?
cos he ain't anyone to me rite?
He really ain't..
But his colleague saw me..
his colleague was walking a distance away from him..
not sure if his colleague will tell him..
no point after all cos he wun bother abt me..
i am a sand in his eyes..irritating and useless..
something that no one would want..
Got no right to compete for anything
when i dun even dare to tell him anything
i am very useless..
i'm glad i got HIM to listen to me..
HE is still the best but i think we can only be friends..
Who is willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on?
It really is bad crying alone at home..
The tears juz flow when i think of XXX
be it in the room, on my bed,
in front of my laptop, while bathing,
eating...haiz..XXX, u sucks...
XXX : i like U but i HAte U,
I miss U but i Hate U,
I want to continue being friends with U but i hate U,
I want to forget U but i hate U..
Dun worry, i Hate myself for wanting to know U in e 1st place..
I m a bitch..i hate myself..
i think i am fake but who cares..
if u are true to me i will be true to u too..
but dun ever be fake to me..
dun lie to me cos i hate liars..
lies can hurt someone very deeply
and some wounds cannot be mended..
i wan to say out all my feelings but i dunno how to..
haiz..i dunno where to start from..
but in the first place..
who is willing to listen..
who will be there to listen to me, U?
who will be there to wipe away my tears, U?
who will be there to comfort me, U?
who will be there to give me a hug, U?
who will be there to make me stand on my feet again, U?
who will be there to lend me a shoulder to lean on, U?
who will be there to juz see me cry everything out, U?
where are U, i really need U now..
but U are nowhere in sight..
i'm all alone in my world of complicated thoughts..