Haiz..lately feeling very sad and depressed~~ dunno why maybe is because of a lot of factors bah! these sadness i think is all because of my own fault bahx! I tried not to think of u but i really cant forget the times when we went out (though not a lot of times) but ... i really wish o forget all ur talks and though i have deleted them i still remember them~~~ i wan to forget everything! i juz hope to be who i used to be~~ Everything now sucks ! I dun like the way things is now~~ Maybe i have changed but ~~~ Maybe i am more suitable to be on my own prefer to be with my parents Cos i really dun like the feeling of being alone But i fear...of what i dunno~it is juz a feeling tt i fear~~ Staying at home and going out with my parents are what i like to do now~~ Everytime i walk on the streets i will think wat should i do if i see u along the streets? i think i will pretend i saw nothing and continue walking maybe it sounds childish to u but i really dunno how to react what to say and stuff so by walking away mightg be better~~ i dun wan to say the wrong things and making things worse! Maybe i need more time on my own~~