lying on my bed closing my eyes to get more slp but i can't slp why i ask myself? i dunno~ flashes of wat happen yest went thru my mind maybe yest too many wrong decisions made too many "IF ONLY" but i can't turn back time Maybe i shouldn't this Maybe i shouldn't that Now i feel like a fool a silly fool that was fooled i didn't give u an ans cos i really dunno i dunno wat to believe u r far too complicated u've ask e qns tt i fear but i didn't let u know why? cos what's e point? after all it's just me now i know very clear it's me and me and me all e problem is me i wished i had nodded and agreed but den again ~~ what if u dun really mean it? I realised that i cant slp Maybe i really do miss u But i guess it's all over right? This was just a game to u maybe i'll nv get to see u again! do u call this a fling? or what do u call this? why can't i jus concentrate on my studies i really hope that i can do well that's all i wish for now! how i wish u understand me but u dun seem to and u seem to me tt there isn't a need den how do u want me to trust u? U dunno how much i really wish to trust u i have opened up the door to my heart but den again u made me pull down the gate! Now i'm back to perfect isolation only want to study and be alone but i cant get u off my mind just let me concentrate on my studies maybe we are just noe fated! ok, it just sounds like i'm consoling myself after all not much ppl come here so at least i can pour out my sorrows cos i really dunno how to say it out Why do tears fall when i hear some songs why do tears fall when i walk home why do tears fall when i look at my hp why do tears fall when i see myself in e mirror why do tears fall when i lie on the bed do i have too much tears or is it because i miss u too much or is it because i really regret it? or is it because i am lost? or is it because i need someone to direct me? who will be there for me? who will come hold my hand and guide me through? Is it U, u or you? When will someone come along and wipe away all my tears and tell me that i can depend on him and no matter what happens he'll also be there for me? but somehow i know that this can no longer be true~ i feel like a BITCH i feel like a SLUT i feel like an IDIOT i feel like i am too stupid!! i hate U but i hate myself more! If only i can disappear and live a life on my own alone! = =
