haha~~ i did the dumbest thing in the whole wide world dat all my friend have nothing more to say den agree that i was dumb. plain stupidity..has all these waiting cause me to grow stupid or what? i really like him and i still do but i just ruin everything... ruined by myself no third party or anything. how stupid can i get? He asked me to go for dinner and i bloodly hell told him that i have already had my dinner..Wow Karen Wow...pls prove how much more dumb can u get! I agree X years is not short and in fact it's quite long.. it's not that i never given up on him before.. i tried but when things go bad because i met with too many jerks! den i will realise that he's still there for me! His simple msges can ggive me the strength to move on and everything else I thought as time goes by i wun be bothered with him and i can get someone new but after that incident i realised tt i cannot.. i waited and stared at my phone the whole day waiting for his reply. i dunno how to make up for what i have done!
To, XXX how i wish i could tell u i'm sorry i dunno what got into me to tell u that maybe in my heart i am afraid as well but of what i really dunno! i hate myself! i truly do! how i wish one day i could tell u everything and not hide anything from u cos i am hiding too much from you.. everything i'm feeling! If only i hadnt fall tat deep down.. you are really impt to me but no matter what u choose i'll respect it nevertheless.. cos u chose it..cos it's U..
