it's been a long long time since i have updated this blog i have been thinking for very long should i continue this blog or should i just delete it away.. many things have happened and it have set me thinking thinking about life about the heart of people thinking about what is there in life that people cherish i have been disappointed by many people in life is it due to me having too high expectations of them or am i just a tool to be used by people whom i trusted? am i really that naive or am i just too forgiving? i really hate back stabbers and i am very disappointed to know that i have been keeping so many of these behind my back how blind am i? i really got to check not my eyesight but my heart! my heart always tells me to give people the benefit of doubt and what do i get in return.. scars is what i received and they are those scars that wun heal no one expects friends(or wad should i call them) to turn around and bite them hard real hard! i am really very wary about people now. i put up a sulky front to people whom i do not know but this is because i am afraid and also because i have learnt never to trust anyone except myself! i am sorry if u are a friend who is true to me but it would take a while to gain my trust in u.. i do not like who i am now but do i have a choice?