Was digging for something when i open my drawer which have been locked for a long long time already Guess what i found? I found many many letters in there. Letters during my JC times. haha~~ i read it and i just thought it was funny but i did felt very sour in my heart. Me and a few friends were quite close until i couldn;t really remember what happen but in the end a quarrel split the class gers. Was readign thru the letters i felt sad. I wanted to cry and i really mean cry real hard. till today i am still brooding over the same matter that we were talking about as always in the letters. and those letters were in JC1. So that was 4years back. Just wondering how long den would anyone give up on the someone that they like? 2years? 3 years? Anyone was reading the letters and i saw this poem which made me damn damn sad this is something that my classmate once wrote and i felt very sad. cos i'm worried i would be in the same situation as in the poem. i duno when it would be but i really dun hope to be in the situation. Anyway, here it is for share. But i have to say again i didn't write it it was written by my JC classmate. Cannot reveal cos there might be other secrets that would be revealed with it too.
Here it goes...
After all I know the truth still lingers It's not me It's her for always I can't bear to let this truth haunt my memory But it is the truth I have to accept it In time to come I hope these wounds will heal For now, I'll try to act as if It doesn't matter That it's her, not me I have to convince myslef it is Better To see him happy is all i wish All the best to him and her I shall sit back To wait and see Their friendship changing into a long-lasting relationship.
I know the him does like someone now but i dunno who she is and i fear i am struggling! i want to know and i dun want to know i fear what i hear is not what i expect and hope to hear i am very confused these few days i felt like crying but have been controlling how much longer can i control. I almost cried when i hear the song that reminds me of him but i controlled i remember i always cry when i sing that song at that time when i told myself to forget about him how sad is it to still be singing that song. I remember the first time my friends saw me cry when i sang that song they were shocked cos always i would control but that tme i really couldn't it's bad when i am left alone nowadays i would sit in the bus listen to my mp3 and start thinking and i could feel tears welling up in my eyes.
