alot of things have been running through my mind and i dunno what is right and what is wrong it seems that i feel so lost i dunno what i should do i cannot make up my mind on things and i dunno what is the best solution for everything that has happen or is happening i thought it would be easy but it does not seem that way we dun always get things to be in our favour and i truly know but i felt horrible i wanted to see him cos i know only when i see him i would feel better but it is not possible and i cant always hope to see him when i am feeling down and everything he has his own life and plans and i am nothing i know where i stand and i should stop doing all this i just wish i could turn back time and wish that all was back to normal and that it didn't matter to me maybe we should turn back time to when we were still in primary school where there were no troubles. and then i would still be princess not that i no longer am at home i am still princess but at least i have my grandma who would be there to protect me ALWAYS! i know she still lives in my heart and i know she is always with me but i need her physical presence at times.. i want someone to hug with i feel down someone's shoulders to cry on i miss her and i am willing to sacrifice everything just to go back to the time when i have my paternal grandmother grandfather and my family when all the cousins can get to play every weekend when we going cycling to pasir ris park or bedok reservoir when we play and climb trees when we chat about everything when we had singing competitions when we hide in the storeroom to play when we hide in cupboards when we laugh cry play and scream together when we had so much fun with no troubles can we have that time back? everyone is so busy now that i am sure we miss the times we had.
