Everyone has been asking me if i am fine lately.. Yes people i am fine i just need time to get over everything and just need time to see through it indeed my life is in a mess but i left the problem hanging instead of facing it now that i am not working everything just fall apart and i dunno how to cope but i am trying to pick up the pieces i know i shouldnt have neglected the problem but for now i will try to solve it maybe cos i got too much time to think about things i will make myself feel down and that day i felt very happy that he was so lovely i really meant it he was very nice i dunno what i would be now without him he's like a pillar of my life though i am quite sure he doesnt know but liking him has got me going all these whiles no matter how many jerks or assholes i met along the way when i look back i still see him there he's a very nice friend whose smile can bring u warmth i guess i might continue liking him cos i can no longer give up on him. but i do hope that he can be with someone he really likes/loves i just want him to be happy cos then i will be happy! as for XX... i guess i cannot accept the fact of me being a third party though u might say i am not but u are freaking attached. so u should get out of my life it doesnt mean that u can play around or anything when ur gf is not in singapore u wanna hook up with anybody i dun care just stop lying to me and all ur sweet nothings are meaningless so stop calling me ur dear or whatsoever when u already have a gf. whatever it is isnt my problem anymore. u wanna make me drunk? no chance. i dun wanna go out with u or see u anymore... get out of my life and face.
