Sometimes i guess i do not know what is it that i want in life that's why i end up like that. i stumble and i fall but i always try to pick myself up i would not allow myself to remain fallen and cry about it. i do cry but it is just my way of relieving stress.. i know i might scare ppl with this but i dun have a choice sorry ppl haha~~ i guess sometimes i dunno what i can do and i try to reach too high but i am slowly trying to stop as in i will only try once to reach for it if i fail den i wun try again i guess sometimes i should give up on being too persistent abt things cos it has gotten me scars and scars that cant be removed they are burnt deeply into my heart. i used to take the ppl around me for granted and now i know i should not anymore we should treasure what we have in life dun regret like me after it is too late there is this one scar in my heart that cannot be removed it is the greatest regret in my entire life. sometimes i just wish that life can be simplier as in my grandfather and my father to have good health i wan to be by their side forever i dun wanna be apart from them i am already very upset when my grandmother left me i dun wan to see anymore ppl whom i love dearly to leave me cos they are my strength in life and without them i wun be me i look cheerful but i am not i have alot of secrets within me that i cant tell anyone cos i dunno how to and sometimes i dun wan ppl to pity me i dun wan ppl to think that i am pitiful i must be strong i dun like ppl to worry abt me so sometimes or often i put up a strong front but i aint that strong as i look i cry almost everyday at home for wad reason i dun really know too i just think abt wad's happening in my life and the tears will start falling i dunno how to stop them but i just hope to be able to find someone who can stop the tears maybe i am just fated to be single for the rest of my life think it wun be that bad and i know my dad wont mind cos he was the one who told me that getting married can bring alot of headaches i have seen marriages turning ugly and omg maybe like he once say single is good so i shall remain single and carefree though i hope to be loved but i cant trust love anymore dunno if there can be anyone who can rebuild the confidence in me to make me believe in love again.